Archive | April 2013

Glimpses.

As time goes on, I realize that I’m not the most open person. Especially when it comes to social media, which I think airs on the side of caution but sometimes I feel like I should let me readers get to know a little bit more about me. Just a little.

Fun Fact Number 1

My two biggest fears in life are getting old and commitment. In regards to getting old, the thought of losing control of my mind, my body, my life as I get older scares the crap out of me. And about my commitment issues; I can hardly sit through a movie. It’s too much time. It’s that bad.

Fun Fact Number Two

I like to think that I’m this outgoing girl with all the confidence in the world but the more I get to know myself, the more I realize that it takes me a while to warm up to people. I hold back on letting you see the “real” me because I’ve been hurt. Very hurt. And I don’t like when it happens so I tend to tread carefully. BUT, once you do break through those walls, I’m yours forever.

Fun Fact Number Three

I love people too much. When I’m in relationships; whether it be friendships, romantic relationships, family, I love them too much. I care too much. Not to the point that I’m enmeshed with them but to the point that it’s hard for me to let them go if they ever leave. Growing up as a military brat, I had to let friends go all the time. So I think that I now cling to those closest to me because I don’t want them to go like all the others did.

Fun Fact Number Four

I’m insecure. There’s not a whole lot I need to say about that. I’m secure with who I am but I struggle with who I want to be.

Fun Fact Number Five

My weight loss doesn’t define me. I know people sometimes think that because you’re losing weight, that should be the only thing you post about but we’re so much more than that. The people who know I’m trying to lose weight in “real life” only ask about it every now and then and I think that’s how it should be. There’s so much more to me than how much weight I’m losing.

That’s all I got.

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